I gave my nanay some crochet materials last Christmas (2014). From then, she had not stopped crocheting until around June when she was feeling weak. Then she was diagnosed with cancer this August.
When she learnt about it, one of the things she said that we should just go home (from the hospital), and she'd work on the blanket she promised Migi, which she started sometime in summer. She already made blankets for Meg and Mati.
But every time she tried to start on the idea of crocheting again, it just did not happen. As I mentioned in my previous post, somehow cancer will take everything slowly away from you. To see it on a positive note, it is probably cancer's way to detach the person from the physical world.
To keep her from getting more frustrated, instead of telling her that she can make the blanket, I told her instead to not worry because I will take care of making the blanket for migi.
I've been putting it off because, one, I find the pattern too difficult for my almost-beginner hooking skills. Second is that there's a book about hospice caregivers, "The Final Gift," which tells stories of people's final days. And people nearing death sometimes would like to give a gift before leaving. So I kind of keep on delaying making it.
As much as I'm ready to let go of my nanay, there's just that...
But now seeing her slowly being in more pain, making Migi's blanket might help. Maybe this is her final gift?
Pattern of this blanket available here http://www.redheart.com/free-patterns/lions-tigers-bears-blanket .
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