I, Me & Myself

"I paint self-portraits because I am so often alone, because I am the person I know best." Frida Kahlo
via @pestimo via incenses.tumblr.com

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In my case,

I write self-centered interests because I am so often alone, because I am the person I know best.

Alone? I blame it on my being an only child. I read somewhere that only-childs tend to create their own world, and talk to their selves. I am all of those.

I'm definitely not alone. But I guess part of growing up alone as an only-child, I develop the talent to isolate myself in a bubble of my own world even if I'm in a crowded party.

And, because of that I'm clumsy and distracted, and that's why I keep losing stuff. It's because though I'm physically present in a certain place, but my mind is wandering somewhere away.

It probably can be also the reason why I look like I'm a good listener kind of friend. If I find someone's story boring, I just listen and create another version of it in my head.

Write? I could no longer keep how many blogs I created and abandoned. I probably have one in every blogging platform on the www.

Sometimes, I want to whack my self on the head why I cannot stop writing and blah-ing and writing and blah-ing. Really, if people get annoyed of my endless chatter on every social network / blogging platform, I'm more of annoyed of myself.

Sometimes, I scream (inside my head) at myself of why I cannot f*cking stop to blah and blah (like right now). But then, after some time, I thought it is I. If I'm going to stop writing and blah-ing, it will be no longer me.

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I'm not comparing myself to Frida Kahlo. I don't want to insult her. But I'm happy to know that it's normal to be so interested of myself.